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SmilesSometimes my life wont be what it seems.
Masked behind stories and broken old dreams.
Ignorance is only bliss to those who dont know
Leaving me to bleed and suffer in this woe.
Engaged in this play that we all assume.
Safe in a fantasy till we are consumed.
Soldier-boyGo on ahead little soldier-boy
make your mama proud.
Serving your country with loyalty,
your courage knows no bounds.
Keep your head up, soldier-boy,
a cold gun is in your fingers,
and although days have passed,
the memories will always linger.
Keep praying good ol' soldier-boy
as bombs paint across the sky.
Your friends are in a better place
no time for you to cry.
Don't stop moving my brave soldier-boy
the sun has not yet set
the enemy is closing in
one shot is all that's left.
Hold your breath scared soldier-boy
the fiends are at your tail
they'll hunt you down mercilessly
as your mission is marked 'fail'
Close your eyes dear soldier-boy
and pray up to your God.
The pain is building in your chest
and your vision is getting flawed.
It will be over soon sweet soldier-boy
as some bunker down and cry
the fight for you is over
some men were born to die.
Goodbye my brave soldier-boy
your life burned out like an ember.
Your sacrifice wasn't for naught.
And we will always remember.
Let's runaway to Never-land.
Let's do it; just you and me.
We wont have to look back again,
we'll finally be truly free.
We won't be forced to surrender
or face the problems here.
We'll carve a new place for our own
And let the world just disappear.
We'll face pirates, ghosts, and fairies.
And dream our nights away.
Wont grow old, be forgotten or perish.
so promise me you'll stay.
We'll lead a band of vagabonds.
And climb up through the trees.
We'll fly kites till our discretion
all in the summer breeze.
Time will stop in time for dreaming.
And we'll never be hurt again.
We'll be happy and comforted
so come on lets go my friend.
We'll face our OWN reality
and be spared from a dying world.
Within our place of fantasy
the red carpet's been unfurled.
Take my hand my dear one
the adventures are waiting now.
Just jump into the magic
I promise I'll show you how.
You see you are all I need.
In this world of imperfection
I'll show you a life of happiness
free of tu
The Blame Game. The Blame Game
How about we play a game.
So we will know who is to blame.
We'll spin the dice and take a turn.
And hurt each other until it burns.
I can't believe what you have done.
Filled us with lies of Kingdom come.
You preached of a God oh so great.
Yet now it seems we are of different fates
There will be no hypocrites beyond His door.
Nor salvation for the wicked to their core.
No place for the deceitful with silver tongues
or those who have been lost since they were young.
For you who cant stand to see your mother.
Have only become a dreadful bother.
Spewing your hate from here to there.
You will one day face a life so bare.
You speak of a Kingdom and Father's love,
Yet when faced a problem; were the first to shove.
A coward hiding behind twisted lies.
Then questioned why we broke all ties.
Don't get me started on your transgressions.
Your problems you caused with pure aggression.
You fought, and screamed, and manipulated.
Your husbands left beaten and berated
When fairy tales end.It's ok to pull the covers
and put your dreams to rest.
To let go of fantasies discovered
and quit wishing for the best.
To seize wasting time on yesterday
and give up on whats a new.
To hold the shattered mirror
and at the scattered view.
It's alright to bleed out slowly
thats all that counts.
And let go of broken promises
that only brought you doubt.
To cry alone is useless
so dont shed another tear.
After all, the monsters,
wont be your greatest fear.
It's ok just close your eyes
and dont bother to defend.
Even fairy tales once beautiful
shall come to a simple end.
I should have I should have
I should have started my diet today.
I should have thrown all the junk food away.
I should have started by running a mile.
I SHOULD have started but I'm still in denial.
I should save money for an old car.
I should have but work is not THAT far.
I should have cleared all the junk in boxes
I should have but I'm entertained with toy foxes.
I should have painted the house with great care.
I should have fixed my old broken chair.
I should collect all the leaves in the yard.
I should have mailed your Christmas card.
I should have started enrolling for classes.
I should have tried to find my dear glasses.
I should have found some time to begin.
I should have made sure the clock's batteries were in.
I should have attempted to move out of the house.
I should have gotten rid of that old mouse.
I should have stopped playing video games.
I should have learned from last years shame.
I should have stuck to last years resolutions.
I should have planned with more cons
Hope you know. Hope You Know
I hope you know I loved you.
every single day.
And always wished you the best
in every prayer that I'd say.
I hope you know you're special
and no one can contest.
And that you are unique
and quite simply the best.
I hope you know you're strong
and dont let things break you down.
That you may stand your ground
but remember to be a clown.
I hope you remember to smile
and think of tomorrow as new.
That you never let your past
be something too painful to review.
I hope you are a gentleman
and act like you were raised.
Surpass every expectation
and never let your mind be fazed.
I hope you know you're talented
and handsome that is true.
And no matter where you go
I will always comfort you.
I hope you know that distance
wont keep us far apart.
For since you were so little
you always had my heart.
I hope you know that life is hard
but you still must merely try.
That it is full of wonders
so don't let them pass you by.
I hope you know I love you
On the inside. On The inside
Peel at the surface
and hope to reach the base
of a reality you used to know
a once so pretty face
Left behind by isolation
and rendered a useless foe
you're marred by imperfection
that you yourself have sewn
Yet you scratch at the surface
digging deeper for the answers
do you even know the question?
As it gnaws at you like cancer
Tearing back the layers
as the creature starts to show
are you scared of your own reflection
as the pain begins to grow
So lost and unattended
as the infection settles in
corrupting from the inside
as your walls are caving in
yet you remove another layer
as the darkness seems to grow
you rip into your being
as you pay back what you owe
The scraps of you left scattered
piling high upon the floor
you keep looking for your sanity
do you even know what for?
What task is oh so daunting
that you keep punishing for more
so that maybe past the surface
is your weak and burdened core
All you really have is nothing
but the mess you have
ShardsThe dream shatters around me like a broken mirror.
Pieces of you surround me, but nothing seems to be clear.
I'm still cleaning up the mess you made.
You should have put down your fear,
You could have stayed.
I'm done chasing.
I've stopped running.
Have you even noticed that I'm walking the other way?
I'm cut by the shards of what's left of who you were.
Red tears stain the surface while the world is in a blur.
I Loved You MoreThey say patience
can go a really long way
So I waited
and I waited
for you to say
What was going on
In that pretty little mind
you pushed me off
and you wasted my time
All those things I said
all those words in my head
all that love that I gave to you
now its clear what it all meant to you
I simply loved you more
I crossed my heart and I swore
that someday I would make you happy
but the promise is all but broken
and my heart is gone, all but stolen
I can't ever get it back because
I guess I loved you more.
I tried building
bridges over all of the walls
I tried healing
all of the burning scars
But you didn't want me at all
What was going on
In that beautiful head
Did you think I was done,
over, and gone?
did you realize my soul was dead?
All those actions in my head
All those words left unsaid
All I wanted was to give to you
But its clear now what I meant to you
I simply loved you more
and you walked out of the door
I only wanted you to smile
The emotion is all but gone
I Will Love MeI measure
Through your eyes to only
When I see myself
If you do
Not love me
Then why even bother
To tell me
I'm special at all
From now on
For living is not
For some one
Who’d throw me aside
Will love me
The way I had wanted
Love me first
My father once told me that life is supposed to be a struggle
And that everyone has their own specific type of hustle.
Whether it be working in an office or stacking products on a shelf.
Naturally we all share the same aim of accumulating wealth.
He also told me that nothing is promised in this life time.
When you least expect it the man upstairs will throw you a life line.
Something or someone that will give you a reason to continue.
Awaken the hidden belief and talent that law dormant within you.
He then told me that happiness and success are short lived.
In time your name will both appear and disappear from life's shortlist.
At some point you will feel like the whole world is against you.
No matter what you do some people will just always resent you.
Accept their venomously kind words but never take them to heart.
The show must go on and no one else but you can play your part.
Lastly he said that you must find a balance between work and leisure
Because those priceless mome
An Angel Like YouAn angel of perfection
an angel of sweetness
The love that brought us here
has made my life amazing
An angel you are
from above to protect me
with all the love we have
this can go on much longer
It is true to me
that you are the love of my life
cause I am so very happy
to have an angel like you
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Black and WhiteSealing up memories
In cardboard boxes,
Hiding old injuries
Inside dusty closets.
Riding a beaten track
With busted brakes,
So I run right back
Into past mistakes.
Tried to know for sure
If this time was real,
‘Cuz there's no cure
For love's ordeal.
Life seemed so grand
When I was beside you,
When you held my hand
And said you loved me too.
Now I'm clutching at the place
Where my heart used to be,
A hopeless empty space
To which you held the key.
Maybe if I had known
About all of your lies,
And your heart of stone,
Your whole disguise--
Maybe I could have saved
Myself from this pain,
And not become enslaved
By a love we could not sustain.
The words left unspoken
Keep me up every night,
When your heart's been stolen
Life becomes black and white.
UnderstandYou say I'm confusing,
that I know I am.
My feelings are twisted,
from being hurt so many times.
You must understand,
I'm not like everyone.
No one gets me like you,
yet you're still wandering the maze.
My heart is pure,
I'm loyal as they come.
I will never try to hurt you.
If I do, it wasn't in meaning.
I travel this living road,
waiting for someone to pull me off.
Your strong hands did just that,
now I fear you'll put me right back.
You must understand,
I'm still learning to breath.
Be patient with me,
and maybe I'll be perfect at last.
TearsI didn't cry in empty rooms
With closed windows and no furniture,
I didn't cry during steaming hot showers
And lavender body wash,
I didn't cry under thick blankets
And coarse bed sheets and thin pillows because
I was sad.
I cried because I was scared, because I was tired,
Because I was sheltered too much
To be able to find my way on my own.
I cried because love wasn't easy
And life was even harder.
I cried because sometimes
What matters the most hurts the worse.
I cried until my eyes
Refused to produce more of that clear, salty liquid.
I cried because…
I loved you…
But you hurt me every time.
Me and You.Before we drown in uncertainties
and throw away old priorities.
Lets replay all the old lullabies.
Even if only save goodbyes.
Do you remember all the late nights?
Before our disputes and all of our fights?
The way you held me in the cold.
Or the way you promised 'till we are old'.
Do you have the trinkets I sorely left.
Hear our laughs that now fallen deaf.
Find our pictures in old worn boxes?
That lay so hidden like wary foxes.
Lets try again through hopeful wishes.
we hold back tears, more broken dishes.
We see the mess we created.
Our once happy bubble, now deflated.
The bags all packed and tied so tight.
Our home so warm now cold at night.
We'll soon leave so don't be mad.
The silence killed the 'love' we had.
How did we come to fall so far.
Our broken hearts kept in a jar.
A love we once thought was so true.
Leave broken memories of me and you.
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